Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
I would like to dedicate this song to my momma. When my friends and I heard it we could not stop laughing. AND NO my mom does not buy crud like they do in the song! Most of the awesome stuff in Kaiya's new room were things she found while cruisin' EBAY. I think she is the new reigning queen of ebay!! When I heard this song I knew it would make her laugh. So here's to you momma.... I am LOVIN your ebay skills and I love you. Angel Face
Posted by Angel at 9:41 PM
Monday, February 25, 2008
Eagle's Nest has taken in two more little cherubs who had nowhere else to go. They just arrived at the home this past weekend. There are no funds for them yet. Just faith that God will provide as He has for the rest of them. Aren't they precious??? The little girl in the first picture is Irma. Loving the cheeks right? The little boy with the AWESOME hair is Jairo. What gorgeous Guatababies!!
Thank you so much for caring. For those who care about our sponsor child- Droopy Dog we still have no information on how she is since the government moved her. I pray for her so much. We just want her to go to a good home. I will let you know if we find out more. I will also update if I get new pictures of these cutie patooties.
Posted by Angel at 8:18 PM
When I looked in the review mirror I felt like her eyes were getting more and more full of tears. I thought I must be mistaken. She must be tired or something. After all- there was no way that a four year old could get the link... be deeply touched by music that way right?
When it was over I said, "Baby, your eyes look sad. Are you sleepy?" Kaitlyn said, "No Mommy, it's just that this song makes me think about Kaiya and about Zoe in Guatemala. I think about Zoe when she was in that mudslide and she was alone. It makes me sad. I don't want Kaiya to be alone in China. I am so glad we are going to be her family."
Well that did it. Then I was really crying. I was glad we had arrived at our destination by that point. We sat in the car and listened to the words together. All week I have just kept reflecting on it. Look what God has done.... I had no idea the profound lessons God would teach my children through this journey He has asked us to take.
It is so easy to think that when we make a choice to do something big in our heart it won't reach very far. It's easy to think we can't really make a difference. The truth is we will never know the profound difference we make. We won't realize the way we are changing the course of history. What will our children do because our faith changed their hearts? What will their children do? What will our friends and loved ones do differently because we chose to be unafraid?
Seeing Kaitlyn's heart and compassion for orphans touched me deeply. It is something far beyond anything I could have explained to her.... This precious heart is a gift of God. Something she could only learn by seeing it. I thank the Lord that through these crazy hard lessons not only has He been changing me but He is teaching my little princesses so much more than I could ever have hoped to teach them. This 4 year old gets things that many 40 year olds still try to grasp or ignore all together.
So here is the song.... In a few months, Lord Willing, you will watch me meet my little Kaiya for the first time to this music. The journey to a family through her eyes...
When you watch the video try to ignore all the screaming teeny bopper girls. ;0) They won't be in my video.
Don't underestimate yourself and the impact you make. Keep walking the path you know you should be on. Your children see it. Their hearts take it in. Hugs, Angel
Posted by Angel at 12:00 AM
Sunday, February 24, 2008
It's $30 which I wouldn't normally spend but it's way worth it to get a video from China of our baby. She might be able to get a video of my friend's baby there too. So that would be awesome. Just wanted to share for those of you who have waiting kiddos where this might come in handy.
Kaitlyn helped me pick them out for our girl.
This is the toy Kaitlyn picked out for her.
When you pull on it the bug lights up and makes little sounds. Very cute.
Here is a tired Kaitlyn looking just THRILLED to display the tootsie rolls we sent in the bag. :0) We sent these for the nannies and older kiddos.
I am sending HUGE thank you to Ellie for making the effort to do this for us and for our babies. You are precious and I will make every effort to pay it forward and bless others the way you are blessing us!
I am so pumped to follow Ellie's trip to China. She leaves THIS week!!! WOOHOOO!!! She should be meeting her sweet little baby girl and our Kaiya as well as our friend's baby on the 2nd or 3rd of March. I have told her to just post pics in whatever way is easiest. So if you help me stalk her blog we just might see pics of Kaiya there first. Let me know if you spot them before I do!!! I AM SOOOO EXCITED! GO ELLIE! We will be cheering you on. I can't wait to see Tia in your arms.
Saturday, February 23, 2008
Kaitlyn: Why did God make lots of different stuff?
Me: Well... do you mean like how He made animals and people?
Kaitlyn: I'm not worried about ANIMALS and PEOPLE mommy..... What I am worried about is TOYS and HOUSES and BARBIES!!
Me: (trying not to giggle) Ohhhh... I see. Well, God makes people and people make different toys and houses and Barbies.
Me: Well, don't you think having lots of different kinds of toys is fun?
Kaitlyn: OHHHHH OK. (Then she immediately leaves the room)
Gotta love her. She makes me smile every day. :0) Angel
Posted by Angel at 12:33 AM
Friday, February 22, 2008
One of my blogger buddies http://adoptingfromrussia2.blogspot.com/ posted this video. It's a preview for a movie. I found it so interesting. Thought you might be interested too! I do tend to feel that tolerance and free speech lean in one direction. I am highly supportive of tolerance and fair speech for all ends of the spectrum. I'll have to check this one out. :0)
Posted by Angel at 10:26 PM
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Wendy, Katie and Levi from
and Natalie and Caleb
Posted by Angel at 10:19 PM
YAY!!! We found a new place to stay!! They were so kind. I asked them all about their policies to be sure this was not something that would happen again. I explained to them what happened so they would understand why I was concerned. I was not unkind at all about it and did not name the property or owner. I must say I was so relieved to hear their shock at the way it was handled. I It made me feel less crazy! :0)
They assured me that in the event that any complaint was issued by their housekeeping it would have to be very quickly after the guest checked out to be sure no one else acquired the code to get in and use the condo. They would also ask that the condo not be cleaned and they would go and take pictures of it. I thought these policies made a lot more sense and left less room for deception. She also assured me that the housekeeping service they use has been honest to the point of often not charging them for things she did not need to do when things were cleaned. That's very comforting.
On top of that you can be sure from now on I will be using my handy dandy flip camcorder to take a video of the condo before we leave while showing the time and date on the cell phone.
I feel SO much better now. Thank you so much for your kind comments. God DOES always provide. I think this is actually going to work out great. We are going next weekend instead and Russ is going to be able to take a couple of days off. WOOHOO! So we will get to take a long weekend. That is a special treat. Now the girls are extremely excited because Daddy gets to spend extra time with them. They also gave us a wonderful rate and they seemed very interested in working out a long term agreement.
We still have not recieved the report of the claims of the horrid mess we alledgedly left. My friend and I both called to ask for it again. Weird.
Oh well. I am good now. I truly think it is a loss for this kind lady that she did not give us the benefit of the doubt but I don't hold any anger about it. I wish her the best though I do hope she eventually finds out the truth.
I truly thank you for your sweet words. I needed them this morning.
Posted by Angel at 7:59 PM
Something happened yesterday that really upset me. Like REALLY upset me. I am not sure how to handle it. Well, there is really nothing I can do. I just have to let it go. It's weird... I have handled this adoption so well... then I had this thing happened and it felt like a swift kick in the gut! First we lost our sweet Droopy Dog and then this. Maybe it was just too much for one weekend.
Earlier this year Russ and I had planned a trip to Disney World with the girls for Feb. It was going to be my present and Zoe's present for our b-days. Well because of finances having to do with a certain adoption of our cutie patootie Kaiya and issues with taking time off we needed to cancel it.
So I decided to find a place at that beach we visited back in October that is close to us. I am sure you remember it. Anyway... I am not going to put down any names. I don't want this to be a mean post. I am just so sad and needed to get this out.
Well I found this condo that I loved and contacted the owner about whether she would be interested in a long term relationship. We would stay for a certain amount of weekends per year and she would give us good rates. She was SO excited and so was I. For me this was literally a dream come true. I felt like God was blessing us as a family through this precious lady and the ability to get away to the beach. Since I was a little bitty munchkin I have dreamed of being able to do that.
Soooo this weekend was supposed to be our first trip for Zoe's birthday. I have talked to the owner many times on the phone and we have e-mailed a LOT. She was even sweet enough to mail me a square for Kaiya's quilt and leave a present for Zoe in the condo. Isn't that great?
Since she had some open days she offered me an amazing rate for last weekend. So I called up a couple of girlfriends and we did a last minute trip up there with no kids. It was so nice and relaxed and I could not have been more thrilled. I told Zoe and Kaitlyn that they would get to go next week and not to worry. ;0) They have been talking about it and were so pumped up.
When we left the condo we were SOOOO careful. I wanted to be very respectful of this lady's condo. We made the beds. We cleaned the pots and pans by hand. I even went through and picked up little pieces of hair off the floor with a tissue so that it wouldn't be messy. I dusted off the couch and fluffed the pillows. Now there were a few frozen glasses of virgin pina colada that were in the freezer. We never got to them and they were frozen so we could not throw them out so we put them in the sink so they would be thawed for housekeeping. We were paying more for housekeeping than for a night there so I had no inkling that this would be a problem. When we left the place looked almost perfect. In fact we were joking that the housekeeper would be very happy to have an easy job.
I was so excited about the situation that I was telling everyone. Several of my friends and my momma were going to be calling to start working with her too! We were all LOVING it.
Then yesterday we got a call saying that we were going to be charged an extra $35 because housekeeping said there was no damage to the condo but it was extremely dirty. WHAT?? I did not care about the $35 but I was very upset that we were being falsely accused. They contacted my friend so she told them exactly what I told you. We were sure that it was a mistake and that they would call back and say they had the wrong room or something. Even so I immediately called the owner to tell her the situation. She didn't answer so I left her a message.
About an hour later I recieved a 2 line e-mail from the owner saying based on this report she was canceling all our trips including the ones we payed for. (they are refunding our money of course) I was SHOCKED! Thinking maybe she had not gotten my message I wrote her back a very nice e-mail. I thought for sure she would call me or write back but she has decided to terminate our business relationship. We called back and forth with the management company. We begged them to please drive over to see it themselves. They said that was not their job. I would have driven there myself if I had known early enough. I would have taken video proving it was clean if I had known. There was nothing I could do.
So I had to tell Zoe we could not go to the beach for her birthday present because somebody said mommy left it dirty when I didn't... I am so incredibly hurt and confused. What is going on? Why didn't she even hear me out? Just the night before we chatted for about 15 minutes on the phone. A housekeeper who makes money off of the place being really dirty claims that it is with no proof and without even hearing my side she cancels a long term contract that would make her a LOT of money. Not to mention how many of my friends I was rounding up for her because I really liked her and her place.
I am deeply hurt and spent quite a bit of time last night bawling my eyes out. I just hate that there is NO WAY for me to prove that this is all not true. I don't know what happened. The place was not even cleaned the day we left. I don't know why. So I guess someone could have gotten in with the code. That doesn't make a lot of sense to me. What makes more sense is that the housekeeping staff likes to claim messier rooms because they make more money. BUT I don't know that either.
I need to let this go... I am just disappointed and so sad for Zoe and Kaitlyn. This was a big deal for our family. We were all ready for this. I never would have done anything to mess that up but it doesn't matter. I am guilty till proven innocent. It stinks.
I am not going to be angry... I know that when things like this happen we can choose to be angry or we can learn from it. I am going to choose to learn from it. I am going to forgive the person who falsely accused us though it cost us a lot. I forgive this lady for not giving me a chance. I know she must have been very hurt by someone in the past if it is hard for her to trust. I am very sad but I will just have to get on with it. Thanks for listening...er...reading. I just needed to get it out. Hugs to my buds.
Posted by Angel at 8:52 AM
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
As many of you know we have been sponsoring a sweet little cherub that I met on my mission trip to Eagle's Nest in Guatemala. This weekend Claire was so kind to write and tell us about some very sad news. I truly wept. Our little sweet cheeks was taken, by the government, from her house mommy and the only home she has ever known. I love this little girl and ask you to pray with me that God will give her a wonderful family and a home. My heart aches for her tonight. You are loved little one.
Copied from Eagles Nest blog....
Yesterday was the hearing in Mixco for Milka. Just a routine hearing to get more information for the investigation to find her mother. There was a substitute judge and she was in a hurry. Ana told me that it was as if court was doing something quickly, because the judge had the power that day. The judge said what a cute healthy baby, and then came back in to say that she was being transfered to a home in the city and that the home there could not pick her up, so she personally was just going to take her. So with Milka screaming and reaching for Ana they took her to the car and away she went. Ana said they did not give a reason.
We know at this time that the courts are really making this part of their investigation process. They review the papers, and then they issue a “rescue” and have the child taken to another home. We think maybe so that the first home will not benefit from an adoption.
We feel that is just a “control” issue, but we have no idea of their reasoning.
Please pray for Milka that she will adjust quickly to her new surroundings.
We are so sorry for the family who has loved her from the beginning and for Angel who has supported her for 2 month. We pray for you in this sad time. We will still be doing what we can to have her transfered back, but it is out of our control.
The government is calling this the “protection of the child”
It makes us feel like they think the paper work is
important, but the child is not.
We have protected Milka since she was born.
I just wanted to let all of you know. We will continue to support this wonderful ministry. We are praying about what we are supposed to do next. http://www.eaglesnestint.org/ Hugs, Angel
Posted by Angel at 7:46 PM
Monday, February 18, 2008
Friday, February 15, 2008
Here is why I am in like with the flip. You know I like to do music videos and video clips right? Well.. duh. You read my blog. You know this. So this little gadget is about the size of a medium sized cell phone and takes one hour of medium quality digital video! UHHHH YEAH! Then it has this little attachment that pops out and hooks straight into your computer. THEN up pops this software that will automatically upload your video to youtube... remix it into a movie for you using your music or theirs... let you take digital pictures from the video you took and save it to your picture files... save the videos to your computer or WHATEVER! All that and this little sucker was $150 at Best Buy. SAY WHAT??? This is AMAZING! I am in MAJOR LIKE!
Actually all of the video clips from Zoe's birthday were taken with my new flip. AWESOME! Do you know what this means for us when I go to AFRICA and CHINA? It means lots of AWESOME videos without me breaking my neck carrying my gargantical (yes I made up a word) video camera. I can just carry it around in my little ol purse all the time. OH!!!! It also runs on AA lithium batteries and apparently if you make SURE they are lithium they will last a long time. I just have to carry extras in my purse and no more freak outs about not having charged the video camera. Not only that... This is much less intrusive than a video camera so people don't feel so intimidated or notice this huge thing stuck on my head. :0) OH and I can take pictures FROM the video. Of course my camera is a million times better and I will always use it for photo sessions but it's nice that I can just carry this in my purse for capturing spontanious fun! My camera is too big to carry all the time. So it's great to have BOTH now. I AM SO STINKIN SPOILED!
It's not even funny how spoiled I am now. :0) Soooo I just had to share this with you. It's my new favorite toy and I had to tell you about cause every momma should be so blessed as to have this. It's a great toy. I swear they are not paying me to say this although I would be glad to recieve a check! ;0) Check them out at theflip.com...
Posted by Angel at 11:14 AM
Posted by Angel at 8:49 AM
Thursday, February 14, 2008
Kaitlyn: Mommy, today my teacher at bible study said, "It is balance time."
Me: Ohhhh.... uhhh did you balance on one foot?
Kaitlyn: No MOMMY! That is NOT what you do for balance time.
Me: Oh I see. What DO you do?
Kaitlyn: You make hearts and put pretty stickers on them and you give them to people.
Me: OHHHHH!! (giggling) Do you mean VALENTINES?
Kaitlyn: That's what I SAID- BALANCE TIME!
Posted by Angel at 11:02 PM
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
When she came home she was terrified. She loved us but was afraid to love us. She wanted to be perfect but wanted to leave us before we left her. This scared little one- and now...
Now at nine she is a completely different child- yet the same heart and strength. She is so tall and strong. She has become far more spririted and can border on sassy. ;0) She is funny and a little sarcastic. She is incredibly smart and only a little scared now. She has opinions and dreams. She sings her favorite songs loud and off key while she listens to her Ipod. She is an artist and has great fashion sense. She is incredibly grateful and gracious. She is sensitive and crazy helpful. She is hands down the most amazing big sister I have ever seen. I have fallen in love with her. Truly I have...
It happened slowly for me. From the moment I saw her picture I loved her. Yet the feeling has evolved and changed. At first it scared me that the feelings didn't overwhelm me the way I hoped they would. I felt like I should feel more. I felt mediocre and wondered if I had overestimated myself. The truth is I had. I am selfish and shallow. God was doing something so much bigger than I was capable of doing myself. I didn't even know about this kind of love... it was more profound than anything I had experienced...
In the beginning I admired Zoe deeply- found her to be so sweet. Soon I really liked her too. Before long I was used to her and became comfortable with her. Eventually we shared secrets and jokes. Finally sometimes we didn't even need to talk at all because I knew what she was thinking. Then it happened. I don't know when. It crept up on me.
While I write this I have tears in my eyes. I am so in love with this kid. The very thought of not having her in my life leaves me breathless. I don't just love her. I am not just committed to her. She is mine.... at my core. I am head over heals. I can't begin to picture this family without OUR Zoe. It would never be right. It would be like losing my arm or leg. I would never be the same.
How does that happen? How does a six year old with crazy hair step into your life and steal your heart away? It's God- it's a gift. It's not easy or simple. It's messy and complicated and sometimes confusing. It pushes you beyond what you can handle on your own. It forces you to give up who you are and become more than you ever thought you could be. Then one day you turn around and see that your life is a miracle. You can't claim it- it's clearly God's hand. All around you is something beautiful... something God created. Zoe has given me far more than I could ever hope to give her. She has changed who I am. I am better and stronger- my heart understands more because of what she has taught me.
Love, Your Mommy
Posted by Angel at 7:10 PM
I read this post and begged Michelle to "borrow" it for my blog. If you have been a member of many forums you will know why it gave me a serious case of the giggles. Let me say though that I am now a member of the most awesome forum!! CHI Waiting Children Forum is unbelievably awesome! I am so grateful to be a part of it. They are not like this AT ALL BUT I have been on forums in the past that were NOT so kind and supportive...thus the giggles. Thanks Michelle for a good laugh. :0) Angel
On the advice of counsel, I'd like to mention that what you are about to read is fictional. Any similarities to actual events or persons, either living or dead, is purely coincidental. The characters mentioned are composites only, and in no way represent actual individuals. All in good fun, folks. If you don't understand this post, you've never belonged to a Yahoo group. At least not a Vietnam one.
New Recipe Exchange Yahoo Group
Member #1: I'm deeply sorry if I've offended anyone with my brownie recipe. That was certainly not my intention. I had no idea my addition of pecans would be considered selfish. If someone could explain to me exactly how pecans are selfish, I would love to hear it. I mean really, I would. I thought I had finally found a place where I could share my recipes in a mature environment, but I guess not. I do have a great cookie recipe to share. If anyone's interested, you can just email me privately and I'll be happy to give you the recipe.
Mumble #3: I downt haf to explane enything to you. My commets wer takun strate frum the govermets websit. Go reed it youself.
Member #1: I wish we could stick to recipes. Wouldn't we all get along better if we stayed on topic?
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