Sunday, May 25, 2008

It's 5:30 am.... TOO EXCITED TO SLEEP!

I slept for about 5 hours then I just woke up thinking, "OH MY WORD! This is it!!! This is the day I meet Kaiya Rain Zhen." I can hardly believe this. I mean really guys. I am going to go to some little room and they are going to hand me my daughter and that's IT! She will be my baby... it's surreal. You know with Zoe we visited a lot and kind of built to this point. By the time we picked her up I had spent two months of time in visits with her. This is SOO different. I am so CRAZY curious about her personality. 


What do you think she will be like? Hey there's a fun game while we wait. How about we guess what we think she will be like. LOL! Leave me a comment if you have a guess...

I am going to say that I have very little clue what she will be like at first cause she'll be grieving. I am going to guess a bit shut down for a bit would be expected. Generally I would guess major cuddle bug and a cool little cat. From her pictures I would guess she is not easily bothered. She's like WHATEVER! Anyway, I really have no idea! I am SO CURIOUS!! I am a teeny bit nervous. What if this is hard? You know what though? What keeps coming to my heart is that God picked this little one to be in OUR family. So no matter what her personality it is EXACTLY what will shape our family to be what it should be. Maybe that is what I imagine. Maybe it's very different but I trust it is just what it should be.

What do you think she will be like??? I have been sitting here reading all the comments. It is so much fun. Between Skype and you guys commenting I don't feel like I am all the way across the world. It makes it feel more like a found the coolest China town EVER! LOL! Oh to find this place in America. It's amazing guys. If you are coming to China you need to seriously consider a hop to Hangzhou. WOW! I absolutely ADORE it here. It's like a beautiful movie. You just walk around going- no way- no one sees this in real life. 

This adventure is more than I could hope for. God's plans are so much more amazing than what I could have cooked up for myself. This place I have come to in my heart- surrender- it's making me more than I ever thought I wanted to be. I have such peace and joy. I am not saying that I don't have hard times- I do. I am just saying even in those times I have deep joy. I don't feel as crazy as I used to inside. I now get those people who are patient and peaceful. They used to make me crazy.

Surrender.... saying yes to God when you don't know what the question is. It sounds so scary. I've always said the most wonderful things in life are the scariest. Surrender is one of those things. 

It's almost here.. almost!

Hugs, Angel

22 comments:

Valerie said...

Angel --

so excited for you and anxious to see those pictures of the two of you together! It has been fun to read your posts thus far and see how beautiful China is. We'll be thinking about you in a few hours!!!

Valerie and Henry and Doug

Tracey said...

Hooray! She will be grieving but it will be love at first sight for both of you! Can't wait to hear about the moment she is placed in your arms!!

Anonymous said...

Angel,
I am so excited for you...Kaiya is going to be very calm and melt into your arms....that is what I predict she will be like =)

Thank you for being one of the inspirations for my family...whom I just happen to bump into on my road to adoption. Thank goodness...we are about finishing up our HS for a SN China adoption =) and I cannot wait to be where you are!

Looking forward to seeing your sweet Kaiya with her mommy-finally and forever!

Enjoy,
Erin from FL

Farrah and Jed said...

Angel, She will see you and fall in love just like the rest of the world has....And you have already fallen in love! she will grieve for a little while, and then she will be fine....

melissa said...

Once she is more comfortable with you, I predict that she will be funny. I think she will do things and have expressions that will make you laugh and laugh. I can't wait to see you with your baby - and then I can't wait to see all 3 of your girls together very soon! Can you believe this is it??? You are about to meet your daughter!

Amy said...

I keep coming and checking on you to see if the meet has happened yet! I can't wait to see pictures of sweet her with you! YEE!

Amy said...

Praying that the Lord will be in the midst of your meeting Kaiya. What a special moment!

Nikki said...

Angel- you sound so excited!! It is 9:30pm time here... which I *think* is a half hour after you met Kaiya!!! (I could be wrong). I am so excited for you!!!! Hmm... Kaiya's personality... I guess she will be shy at first, but then show her true side- funny, spunky, and loud!! But who knows:)

Kim said...

I think she is going to have an amazing personality that will fit in with your other girls. I think you are getting close!!! :)

Greta Jo said...

I have been stalking your blogg-waiting to view photos of your baby girl. I am so excited for you!

Mandy said...

Thank you for sharing all the pictures and video of China--its beautiful. I cannot wait to see pictures of you with your little girl!

Oh and I saw the video your husband made (it came thru on reader) it was awesome! How blessed you both are.

Candy said...

FYI...its 10:02 TEXAS TIME and I AM DYING HERE WAITING ON A PIC OF YOU TWO TOGETHER....AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

HUGS

Farrah and Jed said...

Okay so I checked one last time at 11:14 and nothing yet, I guess I will try to sleep now and check in the morning...I hope by now you have her and everything is calming down...

She is probally scared but she don't know it yet but she has been handed to one of the greatest mom's I hope to meet one day!!!!

Hugs to you girl

Alice said...

I am not sure Kaiya will know who she is until she lives with her forever family for a while.

Personalities really come out with kids who are loved and know they are loved.

She will probably surprise everyone after she realizes what a GREAT family she has to love her forever.

I am so happy for you, Russ and the girls.

Anonymous said...

I am so excited for you!!!! She is going into a GREAT family!!!!...she has no idea!...but she will very soon!

Lynn said...

Angel, I have been checking in morning and night and can hardly wait to see how things are going with Kaiya. Saying a prayer for you this morning!

lynn

cindy said...

Angel,
Waiting anxiously to hear all about your new girl. She is so very lovely in her photos and my guess is that she will be calm by the time you get home, and your other girls will totally adore her. you are very blessed. Please let the CHI list know of any worries or needs you have.
cindy

Reba said...

I am so eager with anticipation! I cannot wait to see what she is like either. I predict a great sense of humor and a "go with the flow" personality. Aaaaa...I cannot stand the suspense. :)
Reba

Ellie said...

Ok Angel...

Kaiya is going to be COMPLETE oppisite of KK and Zoe... I think she will be the one that balances the house hold! hehehe... Heck, who said you need balancing???? hehehe... JUST HAVE FUN MOMMA!

MOMMA OF 3


HUgs
Ellie, Angelena and Angelo

TNKerry said...

I just can't wait to hear all about Kaiya. I think she is going to be somewhat quiet and introspective. I think she will exemplify that peace and patience that you are just now beginning to feel and she will be the perfect piece to the your family's puzzle.

Tina said...

Hi Angel,

I've been following your blog (from the other side of the world) for a year now and I can't wait to see the photos of your family together as a whole.
As for Kaiya, I think she'll be a funny little monkey, a tomboy, a considerate and thoughtfull person that will fit in your family just perfect... she might not show her true self at first, but when she's comfortable enough she'll be the perfect addition to your bunch.

Hugs,

Tina (Slovenia)

Ellie said...

you are making me crazy . . . I had it in my head that you would blog right away . . . . I have been majorly blogstalking you! I can't wait to see a photo of Kaiya with you . . . . where oh where can you be?? I think Kaiya will be sweet and very calm - of course I met her when they had just woken her from a nap :) CAN YOU HEAR ME IN CHINA?? I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOUR FIRST PHOTOS OF YOU TOGETHER!