Friday, January 11, 2008

Gotta Go My Own Way

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I wanted to share something with you. I got special permission from Zoe to put this on here because it is a look into her brave little heart. One of her favorite movies right now is High School Musical 2. She will watch it over and over if given the chance! ;0) She especially loved this one song (me too) and would repeat it many times. It seemed very important to her. While she was at my mom's house last week she ended up talking to my mom and telling her that it reminded her of Guatemala and they talked about many of the reasons why. Of course her application of the song is different than the original meaning. It was so precious and impressive that she was able to take these words and apply it to her history. It made me cry.

I don't share all of the details of what my little warrior went through growing up. Those are hers to share when she wants to do so. I hesitated on whether to share this because I don't know if it will make sense if you don't know her whole story but I think you'll get it.


I will share that our Zoe had to make tough decisions when she was in Guatemala and was given some choice in what her future would be. As a 6 year old little girl she was wiser than I can fathom. My little girl is amazing and strong and brave. At 6 years old she had faith that there was something better for her- that she would be loved and safe and happy someday. Her life in Guatemala is something we treasure and we know that there will be a place for those people in her life but she needed to find a different path.

So here is a piece of my peaceful warrior's heart. It makes me teary. The words are written below the video.




Gabriella
I gotta say what's in my mind
Something about us
doesn't seem right these days
life keeps getting in the way

Whenever we try, somehow the plan
is always rearranged
It's so hard to say
But I've gotta do what's best for me
You'll be ok..

I've go to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this
world someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own away

Don't wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes up
and I watch them fall every time
Another color turns to grey
and it's just too hard to watch it all
slowly fade away

I'm leaving today 'cause I've
gotta do what's best for me
you'll be ok..

I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here

I hope you understand
We might find our place in this
world someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own away

Troy
What about us?
What about everything we've been through?

Gabriella
What about trust?

Troy
you know I never wanted to hurt you

Gabriella
and what about me?

Troy
What am I supposed to do?

Gabriella
I gotta leave but I'll miss you

Troy
I'll miss you

Gabriella
so I've got to move on and be who I am

Troy
Why do you have to go?

Gabriella
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand

Troy
I'm trying to understand

Gabriella
We might find our place in this
world someday
but at least for now

Troy
I want you to stay

Gabriella
I wanna go my own way
I've got to move on and be who I am


Troy
What about us?

Gabriella
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand

Troy
I'm trying to understand

Gabriella
We might find our place in this
world someday
but at least for now
I gotta go my own away
I gotta go my own away
I gotta go my own away

13 comments:

TNKerry said...

Wow!!!! I don't know her story. I just now started reading your blog, but I can tell from how she has applied that song to her life that she is one heckuva smart and brave little girl. Thanks for sharing!!

The Collins Family said...

What an amazing little girl. AMAZING and BRAVE.

Ellie said...

Oh Angel...

Yes, teary eyed... Bless her sweet Brave heart...

But, here is something else, you need to also give yourself credit, this child has moved on, into your life... And you are giving her the chance to find herself...

She is who she is, and you have helped her become that person... In the year or so she has been with you and your family, she has blossomed into a wonderful, loving, trusting little girl with bigger hopes and dreams that anyone of us could even imagine!

HUGS
and Give her a HUGE HUG for me!

Ellie

Melissa said...

Sweet, brave Zoe. She is an inspiration to us all.

Lynn said...

It takes a lot of courage to dream big! I know you are proud of your girl. and I love little Milka..she is precious! Lynn

Anonymous said...

Zoe is so AWESOME! And so smart! She is definitely wise beyond her years. Thank you so much for sharing something so close to her heart! DebbieT

Jenny said...

Wow angel...I always love to find songs to describe my feelings...to think a little girl has the capability to see past the meaning they had for it...it's amazing! She's awesome! Jenny

GDS said...

Wow, isn't that something? What an awesome kid - it's amazing how we "adults" can be inspired by "the least of these." KWIM?

nikki said...

What an amazing little girl Zoe is!!

Mandy said...

What a brave and amazing girl your Zoe is! She has a wisdom beyond her years. How lucky you are to hvae such a beautiful daughter!

Angie said...

Zoe is such an amazing little girl!!!! She is so smart and definitely wiser some most adults! Thanks for sharing.

Livin' out loud said...

She carries a wisdom that is beyond her years, I wish for her a loooong, carefree childhood, and I can see she is getting that now.
God Bless
Susan

PeWee said...

I don't know a lot of details about Zoe's life, but the little I know makes me understand how she connected with that song. She is truly a brave warrier beyond her years. She's amazing!