Monday, December 31, 2007

Feeling Wiped Out


I am not sure exactly what is going on with me. I feel pretty wiped out emotionally and physically. I think I have been running on adrenaline off and on since we started the adoption in October. Halloween, Mission trip, home study, dossier prep, home school, volunteering, Thanksgiving, Russ' birthday, a couple of bouts of sickness, numerous Christmas celebrations... Plus Russ says I always get like this at this time of year. I do better with warmth and sun. When it gets cold and dark I just wanna curl up under the covers with my hot tea or chocolate.
So anyway, now that the dossier is mailed off and the holidays are over I feel zonked. I don't want to think or move. I sure don't want to cook or work out. The last couple of nights I couldn't sleep. I just laid there trying to figure out why I feel so sad. It doesn't REALLY make sense to me. Everything is fine.
I feel like I am doing pretty well so far with the adoption. I mean sure I feel sad when I ponder my baby girl in an orphanage on Christmas but I am trusting and looking forward. The situation with the orphans in Guatemala weighs on my heart but no more than the plight of these children always does. So I don't think that is it. It's not that lovely time of month so I can't blame it on hormones. Hee hee hee.. and NO I am not prego. I've been sleeping enough. Well, I have been eating more crud with the holidays so I am sure that doesn't help. ;0) I have unfortunately put on about 4 or 5 pounds of extra insulation these last 2 months. UGH!
I don't want to sound like a whiny baby. I am just trying to keep it real on this blog. I don't want to sound like things are always perfect and rosy around here. I'm no superman. It's just where I am. I am worn a little thin at the moment. Hopefully I just need some chill time and I will bounce back in a few days. So in honor of my current state of blah here is a song that describes how I feel. I thought about making a cute little video with this song but then I thought NAHHHH! Hee hee hee... So this will have to do for now. Hugs, BLAH BLAH Angel

Sunday, December 30, 2007


Wanna hear some of the latest cuteness from our little KK? Of COURSE you do. ;0)
Kaitlyn- Mommy, why can people not adopt kids from Guatemala right now? Is it cause they are making new logs?
laws baby... laws.. hee hee hee

Daddy- Kaitlyn you are just getting too big I think. You aren't going to grow up on me are you?

Kaitlyn- OH YES I AM DADDY! I am going to GROW up. So you better just WATCH OUT!

I believe her. Don't you?

Kaitlyn- Mommy is there a sealand?
Me- What baby?
Kaitlyn- Is there a SEA LAND??? ( getting annoyed)

Me- Baby I don't know what a sealand IS.

Kaitlyn- You KNOW MOMMY!!! (Huge Sigh) It's a little place. Cause they have Disney WORLD and Disney LAND. Do they have Sea World and Sea LAND?

How smart is that little booger? She has her own way of thinking but it SURE is fun and interesting. ;0)

Kaitlyn- What are the clouds made of?

Daddy- What do you think they are made of?

Kaitlyn- Hmmmm.... I think something REALLY squishy.

Kaitlyn's meal time prayer....

God...... Thank you for this food.... it is good food and this food is yummy food. Please help people to go potty ON the potty.... and help mommies and daddies NOT have a hard adoption. Amen

Children are such a blessing. Every moment with my children is a treasure. I pray that I soak in each moment and be so careful not to take it for granted. It seems that every time I blink my sweet babies are growing older and more wonderful. It is my deep desire to treasure the best gifts God gives. It does not matter how he brings them to us. Whether they were planned or a surprise... wanted for years or rejected.... whether they came from our womb or the womb of a mother across an ocean... they are gifts, rewards, as valuable as arrows for a warrior in battle. Why does our society often view more children as a burden? It seems God views them very differently.

Psalm 127

Behold, children are a gift of the LORD,

The fruit of the womb is a reward.

Like arrows in the hand of a warrior,

So are the children of one’s youth.

How blessed is the man whose quiver is full of them;

They will not be ashamed

When they speak with their enemies in the gate.

I want to remember to see my children bounding into the room as a pleasure and not an interruption. I want to hear their stuttering, stalling sentences as adorable and not frustrating. I want their squishing into my bed when they heard a noise to be precious and not intrusive. Most often my irritation comes from my own failure to grow. Most often the things that my children struggle in are bad habits they learned from me. I want to see my children through God's eyes.

And they took to him little children, so that he might put his hands on them: and the disciples said sharp words to them. And when Jesus saw it, he was angry, and said to them, Let the little children come to me, and do not keep them away; for of such is the kingdom of God. Truly I say to you, Whoever does not put himself under the kingdom of God like a little child, will not come into it at all. And he took them in his arms, and gave them a blessing, putting his hands on them. Mark 10

When I see my children's hearts I see God's heart. When I see the way they love- whole heartedly and without reservation- I see God's love. I have so much to learn from my treasures. So much about forgiveness and trust and unconditional love. Love your babies tonight. Take time to treasure who they are. We are so honored to have them. I am honored that God will send me more of these priceless treasures.

It is not a slight thing when they, who are so fresh from God, love us.

-- Author:Charles Dickens

Love, Angel

Thursday, December 27, 2007

Our New Addition- Well KIND OF! :0)

No we are not adopting another sweetie pie. Not YET anyway! ;0) We are now sponsors to this beautiful little girl named Milcka from Guatemala!! I am so thrilled to have her as a part of our extended family. I will call her DD cause Droopy Dog is my little nick name for her. Look at those awesome cheeks! Aren't they crazy adorable? Here is the deal... I met/fell in love with "DD" when I was in Guatemala on our mission trip to Eagle's Nest. She lives at the orphanage where we visited. Of course I was immediately wrapped around her chubby little fingers. :0) I mean look at her! I truly have adored her since the moment I met her. I hated ever having to put her down. These are the pics I took while I was there.

At that time I thought she was on her way home to her family. I was so happy to know she would go to a loving family soon. ( though I was secretly wishing I could take her and about ten others home with me-hee hee) I can't help it! They are so precious. BUT REALLY! I just wanted them all to have great homes. It breaks my heart to say that due to some unavoidable complications DD's case has been stopped by the government. So she will not be able to be adopted until these complications are resolved. This will most likely take a great deal of time. Eagle's Nest Orphanage requested to keep her and care for her although it may be a long road with little to no financial support. When I saw her picture and realized she was one of the kiddos needing support I knew I had to help. As her sponsors we will receive monthly updates on how she is doing.

As many of you know Guatemala is shutting down adoptions for a time to change certain practices and try to make things better. It is estimated that adoptions will be stopped for about 6 months. Sadly, many children will suffer because they are caught in the middle of this delay. The money that parents pay during the adoption process is what allows places like Eagle's Nest to function and support these kids. I know that they desperately want to care for these precious children until they can be matched with families. There are not many places that I trust with my money. This is one place. I have seen what they are doing and I believe in it.

There are more children who need sponsors. Even if you can give a few dollars it will help Eagle's Nest continue to be able to care for these children. They have helped so many of these little jewels find homes. Let's help them continue to be able to take children in and find them loving homes.

You can go to Eagle's Nest website and donate through Pay Pal. Here is the link...


GO TO "HOW CAN I HELP" TO FIND THE PAY PAL DONATE BUTTON -(when you donate make sure you make a note of the name of the child you would like the money to help)

If you would like to see a video about my experience at Eagle's Nest here it is..

Here I am with some of the beautiful children from Eagle's Nest. This is a song they put together to tell us goodbye. Are they precious or WHAT??? A couple of the children in this video need sponsors as they will have to stay at Eagle's Nest until adoptions are re-opened in Guatemala.

Here they are praying for us and our journey home. I was basically bawling my eyes out by the time they were done. They are precious. It was so hard to leave them behind.

Thanks so much for your time. I will continue to keep you updated on sweet little DD and the other kiddos at Eagle's Nest. Love, Angel

PS For more information on Eagle's Nest Orphanage and my mission trip to Guatemala please look at the side bar to the right under my archives section called mission trips. You will find LOTS of great pictures and videos.

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

For Kaiya On Christmas

This is the last Christmas alone baby... Hold on little one. You are so loved. We're coming soon. Love, Mommy

Christmas Videos 2007

I love these sweet girls. Check them out opening their presents and the presents Santa brought for Kaiya. They are such cool kids. Next year, Lord willing, their will be three sweet girls opening presents around the tree. I am saying extra prayers tonight for the little ones in this world with no Santa... no cozy bed. There are far too many. It's hard knowing Kaiya is one of them tonight but I know she isn't abandoned. Soon she will come home. Soon... I pray this is her last Christmas alone.

Lord, take care of my sweet little Kaiya tonight. Please let somebody hug her and tuck her in. Please let her feel that she is loved and safe. Bring her home to us in your perfect timing.

Christmas Memories 2007


A present for Kaiya

Showing KK how to wear clip on earings

Riding the Polar Express

ICE exhibit.... Way cool... literally ;0)

The American Girl Store- What little girls' dreams are made of

Ice skating

KK and Zoe's 1st time ice skating

Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night...